🐾 About Woofie

Life was meaningless and so I thought. I spent a chunk of my life wondering what was it all for anyway. I was being raised to go to school, study hard, get good grades, get scholarship, get into college, get into university, get good job, settle down. I took it for granted and never questioned how life should have been. Until things took a turn for the worse when mum suddenly left followed up by a pandemic not long after. Life turned upside down. I became depressed or was I? How did one know one was depressed when one had never been one before? Depression was very different from hunger. If I was hungry, I knew I wanted to eat. But what about depression? I had no idea what I wanted! Though I was reluctant to admit. I was questioning what had gone wrong for some time. I stopped doing what was little income to me at that time. I stopped giving a thought about how to go on for a while. I was hollow inside. At least suicidal thought never consumed me in any bits.

At that time, the only few things that I was doing for my family were going grocery shopping, cooking for dinner, managing account, taking care of grandma and some troublesome paperwork errands. Maybe there were some more I could not recall nowadays. Ironically I gained confidence in selecting good quality fruits and vegetables from the market and even upskilled my cooking skills from zero to somewhat performable, naturally. Cough cough.

But, but... Life was not there to wait for me to move. I knew that, right? Damn right!

Slowly or rather luckily, with some help from dad, I got into a job, though a physical labor one, far from what my previous white-collar jobs that I hated so much due to being constantly brain-drained and time-drained even at nights and weekends for unmeaningful work. Again what a world I found myself in. So called wasted potential that I could have aimed higher. Screw them all. I knew it was better than sitting on the couch all day or plenty of the day, be it home-couch or office-couch.

Being in this job demanded physical strength and longer hours, only on some days of the weeks, but it has plenty of down time in between. Also, after work time was totally mine to command! For a while this was all I did, work - home - slack off - repeat. I became bored. I wanted more adventures. Everyone on Earth has the fair 24 hours a day no more no less. I asked "How do I give my life more flavor?" Then, I realized I could have used these down times to explore things that I had never thought of before instead of slacking off. And so, creating this site was one of the means for my rehabilitation in my journey. Filling in my times with hobbies and goals was the way to go and so I believed.

Here goes my understanding of  life is a journey of endless self discovery and continuous improvement. Life is meaningless until I give it meaning by knowing what I like. And the only one to decide what I like is myself, not being told by others.