📝 Aug 2024

I never expected editing content for page G Sheet Formula would be taking that much time to make them look nice enough presentable. And going downhill from misty mountain road with windows opened w/o using air cond + poor car wiper condition is a disaster due to water vapour forming both on the inside and outside. Dad took over driving. Also, today I witnessed how busy and crowded Bukit Fraser can get. Today must be as crowded as it can get as it is both a public holiday and a weekend together. The biggest attraction site for activities is surprisingly the Paddock where we didn't visit for so many times we been there. And the road leading to Paddock from the Clock is terribly jammed due to cars parking at the roadside. If we have a next time visiting here during peak season, we absolutely have to avoid this part of the road.

Today 11:42 PM of 30 Aug leaving at Shell Mahkota, then 2:20 AM of 31 Aug arriving at Bukit Fraser. I took a wrong turn near KL Jalan Raja Laut there. Same things Waze didn't alert at that junction last time. Gotta beware of this next time. At first, I thought midnight driving uphill at mountain road would be difficult, but no, actually midnight driving at KL roads is worse. Cars in city just drive too fast, with all lights blinking and flickering, roads splitting, honking and traffic lights here and there. And then at outskirt road, it is dark and hard to drive if not using high lamp. While high lamp pretty much solve this issue, but it might cause annoyance to other drivers so must use accordingly. Closely following another car's back trail can help with low visibility without high lamp. Going uphill at mountain road is quite mild in comparison. Can always take the middle way and easily see if has incoming cars from their headlights. When at tight turn, I can easily stretch straight at the road without worrying about incoming cars. Also a little carefulness is needed to watch out for potential obstacles like fallen tree.

I indulged in Brew House with Chicken Chop + Spaghetti Carbonara, feeling esp hungry today. Went home afterward quickly and finished computer work and slept while lights still on rip.

What a busy and tiring day. And now it is already past midnight and a new day has begun zzz. I wanted to make sure employee Pragash can receive salary by the end of Aug and that needs some effort from me to be quick. Good news finally today shell card pin has been obtained from shell through City Link courier. I wonder if ilovepdf 's unlock pdf password really works too.

I finally decoded how some people can send beautiful Waze link. It is pretty much Waze's skill issue, not my phone skill issue. If the destination pin has be registered in Waze map, then we can send that beautiful link. If our destination is not, then we can't. And share drive is totally useless for my case. And I figured out that Google Map url is pretty much not accurate, as it depends and varies from user screen position. Kinda garbage. So what we can do for those that not registered in Waze map, but we want to use Waze and navigate: Use Google Map, get coordinate of the pin we want, paste this pin as part of a parameter for a Waze url, though it is not as beautiful as registered one. At least it got the job done.

Tired today. So KTM station code can go up to 60,000 and beyond I haven't finished decoding them. Will on hold for today.

The KTM's schedule web is nearly done, deployed and enjoying now after all this hard work. Also, thanks Chatgpt a lot for helping out in the appearance of the web. Also today, I boil Xiao Bai Cai as add-on after dinner. Yummy long time no cook this.

Came home earlier today from work, so started coding "KTM Komuter's Schedule Today" a little bit. After dropping off dad at Damai Perdana, I went to Nenek house for dinner. Had 木耳炸猪肉 + 小白菜 + 药材汤 from their lunch leftover as Aunt Ying not cooking rice for dinner. Aunt Ying cooked Yee Mee soup for Nenek and herself while Uncle Yan tapao dinner from Kai and himself. Peaceful night after dinner while waiting for dad's call to go fetch him home.

Long time no coding. Today I exploited KTM's API - the QR code shown in every station that allows people to scan and see train schedule (for that station only unfortunately). I haven't finished decoded every code for every station.

Today dad so cute seen cuddling my handbag when I handed it over to him while I driving. Been seen several times already but guess I never mentioned it before here. He is embarrassed to cuddle it while in public but show no issue while in car. Lol. My handbag is a cute brown khaki dumpling style with strap I adjusted it to cross-body length resting at my hip. I threatened to take picture of him for sis but unfortunately my phone was inside the bag so I couldn't do so. I further threatened to take picture of him asleep while I placed the handbag in his cuddle.

By the way, despite I am feeling better now that issue level has reduced, I still enjoy being in a skirt, feeling like it is a part of me now. A few days ago on Mon, while outside eating alone at "Behind 99" I got compliment from the "grandma boss" that usually sits at the counter. Holy!

A few days have passed since I have experimented on lipstick. Sometimes I mixed and matched them for lower and upper lip in different colors. Currently I find I like those closer to my original lip colors so they enhance my original color instead of straight up different colors. And today was my 1st time going outside in lipstick to M Cool Bistro XD (in an over knee-length shorts though).

I clean-scraped the surface of my iron from the day before accidentally used on a piece of fabric that cannot be ironed causing stuff to be stick onto the iron. I don't see any laundry sign stating it cannot be ironed. I wonder how to tell if a fabric is ironable or not. Hmm...

I just checked LHDN E-Invoice implementation timeline. Max Point would start on 1 July 2025, still a very very long time away. Stressed for a nothing!

By using chat gpt, I translated entry 17th Aug to Mandarin and placed it in a section of Woofie's diary. Got dad to read, then, he came giving a big hug to me. We reconciled. At night as a token of feeling better, I got honey melon and mango from nsk, cut and left in the fridge for him.

Nothing much happened here I basically alone in the house resting today. Time passed fast and it is night time already.

Aww today might be long or the longest by far in day. I know I am unhappy today, mood swing? I knew something was not right. I am sick of listening to dad's non stop blabbering about what his grandeur plan or target or what he is going to do next.

I knew I am sleepy most of the morning time. I am sick of hearing complaint that I am half asleep in the morning due to not sleeping at night. If at night the moment I ain't chilling, I must be working on paperwork or tidying up something, while this ass hole sure is sleeping while 5-min thru watching news. While that partly due to that lately got a day leaving house at 4:30 AM.

I am sick of his non-stop preaching on Shell's diesel card progress, Galla agreement thing. Serve us right for giving away Proton to Uncle Yoo. Now we lack one car to use. But deep down I do agree that the car has much more use at Uncle's place than me who drive it like once or twice a week. Now when I finally got Axia to use at 6PM in which he came back from outside, and I went out for some printing stuff at Sg Long for Shell card, bad events just happened in succession, rain, no umbrella in car, traffic jam, no parking space near printing shop and lastly the printing shop is even close. I am tired and went straight to eat my dinner alone. While why after 6PM only I got the car cuz I insisted he used the car first and got tyre fixed before going to Kuala Selangor tomorrow instead of lending me the car and go Kuala Selangor on botak tyre.

And I am sick of his non-knocking door barge in. And I am sick of his talking from far away where I can barely listen to what he saying. And I am sick of explaining anything to a geezer who is adamant on his own idealistic belief plus anything I show in English will be met with dead end and most of the time stuff just can't be explained in Mandarin with my very limited Mandarin.

And I am sick of everyone (maybe they care about me) who tell me what I should do or should not do. I am tired of behaving, or putting a mask of everything under control, or a friendly smile face. As easy as one put "pay them no mind", people cannot just hold the ear deaf like how one hold the breath not breathing. I tried to distant myself from wherever bull shit might be coming from.

And I am sick of hearing he telling me that man don't wear skirt, man don't cry or show tears, or I "mou lan yong" (as a joke, well many jokes maybe) due to no girl friend or not actively looking for one or not thinking of marriage, etc. 

Maybe my whole wearing skirt is just an escaping distraction or rebellion from what inner pain coming. But I actually do find some pretty comfortable skirt.

Of crying, I do think it is alright to cry. One time maybe during my 14 or 15 years old, there was me crying out loud in dad's arms I forgot for what reason now but that was very relieving. Now I feel like tears are easily dry and just not expressible. Or was it just no one to listen to all these ranting or just I shouldn't rant at all. I do admit I sucks at forming sentence and stutter due to not talking much. Yeah if one day you see me talking a lot, most likely that is a mask donned on face.

I am sick of him talking about calling out about calling Jason's younger sis or how Cheah got a girl friend. I am sick of being put into a basket of peer pressure. I got asked once by Teng if I am gay (from her seeing me in skirt), really no blame to her from me. I don't mind it. I made things clear I ain't one to her. But somehow it hurts like a thorn when dad mentioned I might be gay or "mou lan yong" adding that's why I no girl friend or how only akua in skirt. I'd argue I'd as well get it removed and be one, maybe it is trans and not akua? Though I know all those hormones are bad to ones health with unknown risks and painful costly surgery shid. Fk this. I am sick of being told that's not manly, only women do/use/wear that. Fk everything! No offense to gay folks, if I must choose, being gay vs being trans, I'd 100% go trans. At some point in life, I have wondered of what's the point of the difference at being a man or a woman, where biologically the only difference was how one brings a baby to this world. That's how I convinced myself of my gender or in another words, gender has no meaning. I didn't get why people got so fixated on gender. Now I kinda get it a little that a gender has whole lots of expectation and codes that one has to follow or being an outcast to the world.

I am sick of blind chase for money to work Mon to Sat. And whatever little time left is spent on managing stuffs that is for money also. And on Sun, I am usually tired to do anything then soon Mon again. I am considering on only working on Ace Mon to Fri only fvck the money. How much does one have to sacrifice for money? Until one deprived of time and energy.

I am sick of people expecting anything from me. Serve me right for having kinda "exceptional score" in my kids day educational progress. That all these people don't know where they got the idea, that "kids who do well in education" will succeed in making tons of money. Screw them all. I must be a disappointment. Though I still find tech with computer fascinating in a hobby way.

I guess all I need is an inner peace now, or at least I believe. I am thinking of not going to Ace in the Mon and going alone to Bukit Fraser in the Mon and Tue. Must be me alone, there is no point if he follows along like last time where all he blabbered were some pain in the ass shit. Though I admit he does has his point, just that makes the whole trip no longer healing if at all.

I just wanna relax and watch anime and cry (if I can get some tears rolling) now.

Oh yeah lemme end this with something positive. I never know in pdf file, some fields can be made editable and linkable! Idk how Shell's people did it but it is so coooool! Hahaha despite some times I thought I failed at my choice for Uni, this time proved that wrong!

Thanks if you have made it past here. That's all for today I am not good I could not be bothered to fix any grammar mistake at this point nor to fix the sequence.

And no, I never have any thought on suicide. I don't know how if I am lost in spirit, somehow I still refuse to die, that I thought even if I get into a deadly accident I can still be alive miraculously or my ghost will continue to haunt the world, despite me not believing in ghost for I believe there would be a day worth looking forward to. I do not know what that day would be.

17th Aug now and I am not stable enough to remember anything happened here even if it is just yesterday. Or maybe I refuse to recall them. Afaik there wasn't any big event here.

No work at Ace today. Finally can enjoy some nice sleep for a while til 9am. And so finally got the long not-in-use awaited bed ready today. I wish I could use some photo in this blog but I don't want to disrupt the flow of daily entry nvm. Feeling kinda proud of irl pet society.

At 6pm, hungry and tired, ate 3 slices of butter kaya bread, a banana and some cookies. Then I overslept til 9:37pm. Quickly done my daily paperwork for company, then went out alone for dinner at McD drive-thru. Dad been out with Mr Mak and co. and left the Axia with me. Ughh speaking of Axia, I forgot to add that it needs quick service for its tyre that dad lost control of it on 11th Aug, Sun near Subang Jaya. He screeched to a halt after spinning two times luckily no other vehicles around to crash into. Only crashed into some dividers, front and back. On Mon or Tue, I fixed them by slapping them together, and so got dad jokingly promised to reward me in skirt.

Pain in da ass having to go outside print and scan when own printer just does not connect to lappy. In Sg Long, is scanning really that expensive costing RM0.50 per page whereas printing only RM0.10 per paper (black and white). Dad went out and had quick grub for a bit and so not following me to dinner. I went alone to Restoran Shen Yuan and the "manager I guess" to my surprise knows me and asked where dad is. Not sure if I/we have visited too often or due to me in a skirt a few times ago.

Tired today to do anything after dinner. At least I managed to get the woods for bed frame to sun dry with as little time after I got home from work before sunset. Still wondering where our Syelek is.

Aww today from morning til night all cloudy and rainy cannot go sundry the wood for the bed. And I was unusually tired today. Anyway I made quite some good stuff to eat. 1. Root beer float with A&W and Magnolia Vanilla ice cream. 2. Has leftover honey dew from yesterday as breakfast. 3. Butter stirred fried king oyster mushroom and cup Maggi as tea. 4. Dinner with stirred fried cabbage + my new recipe of Fried Egg Wrapped in Omelet. And spent night time chilling with manga. Currently reading Wistoria: Wand and Sword.

I took out, cleaned, and assembled the structure of the long-time no used bed once used by Salak South Grandma. It was smaller than I remembered maybe I was the one who was small back then. Really dusty from a more than a decade of no use. Heard sis mentioned pet society like game called animal crossing in Nintendo. I guess making space for this bed is a in-real-life pet society. It was 100% tougher and harder than the game version damn it! The wood base of the bed had been cleared of dust (1 time) but yet to sun dry and syelek it.

Feel relieve not having to work tomorrow and I have car to use tonight while dad out with friend. Yay! And feel like watching anime that I wanted to watch but too tired to watch for many days.

Long time no use the 3 ton lorry again for today passing 1 ton lorry to my employee. Only the filling diesel part is a hassle as only got a single shell card for now. I called Shell today, she asked for my email date and checked whether I submit through Shell web portal, then asked me to wait for another week that they have a very high volume.

Bedtime in Bukit Fraser sure is cold. I layered a grey polo in between my red sweater and orange camisole while sleeping. Puncak Inn has our breakfast covered in the stay price. If not, individually has to pay RM 15 for a buffet breakfast. Very simple buffet but flies sure love this place. Yuck. Maybe next time we are not choosing here again. A little bit sad that today have to go down hill. In the afternoon, we met up with a potential employee in a Mamak in Klang. If things turn out ok, he be working for us. Dinner is just a humble dinner in Restoran Shen Yuan again.

My 1/2 day in Bukit Fraser with dad. We couldn't leave house early as at 9AM we handed our 1 ton lorry to Ah Zai at KPT in BMC. Then I fetched dad to Klinik Kesihatan Bandar Hussein Onn for taking drugs for high blood pressure. Afterwards we came home as I needed to continue packing stuff. Due to I was still not done packing stuff, earlier in the morning he mouthed about how we no need to go anywhere. But at night he sure slapped his own face that he forgot to bring jacket, soap and tooth paste while I even have an extra jacket for him knowing this situation might come. In Bukit Fraser, the central library is open still as quiet as ever. Also why does dad keep insisting whatever food I ordered in succession. My response was always "Of course I can, it is just whether I want to eat or not." Bukit Fraser is even quieter this time than last visit with sis along. A new restaurant has opened next to Central Building called The Century. Well, their dessert could have been better. Scone much worse vs Coliseum Cafe. And cake very sweet. At night after shower comes my debut in skirt far away from home. I rocked my red mini skirt, red sweater, black 280d legging outside sitting in front of golf club there and chilling in the night sky while enjoying breeze. Nearing bedtime, I debuted my light bluish white Smurfs-like head cover.

Finished work at around 1PM. Went to eat Ampang first famous Yong Tau Foo called Foong Foong but it is a lot worse than expected. Expectation brings disappointment true. Forgot their name, maybe its 2 rivals standing next to it be better. If next time happen to eat Yong Tau Foo in Ampang, the other 2 are the prime choices. And today suddenly by impromptu decided to go Fraser Hill tomorrow after dropping one ton lorry to workshop for fuel pump work. At night become my shopping spree from 7Eleven to 99 to MrDiy to Burger King.

Handed Aunt Ying's Motorbike insurance and road tax by going Nenek house for dinner. And the phone string to Teng. Heard Aunt Ying purposely cooked a Bak Zam Gai for me when thought of me coming despite I didn't make a phone call beforehand. I am a little moved. As Nenek called me yesterday asking not to come on yesterday. So I made it today after cleaning house for the whole afternoon. Now typing this at Nenek House, I am tired, with the thought of so much yet to clean. Damn Sis's room is surprisingly dusty especially at those corners.

Dad seems to have some waist pain from working. As expected from not using the right posture when moving goods. And when I was helping him get up from sis's bed (now my bed) can hear cracking sound most likely from waist area.

Took a day off while lorry taken to check fuel pump in the morning. I refused to work for just a 2nd half of a day. So dad went by himself while I stayed home cleaning. Sis's room is unbelievably dusty when it comes to corners and the grandma's mattress which she claimed to have never been washed. Yuck! Also, this might have been the 1st time I cleaning my own wardrobe in a decade. Still got a lot to do. When night came, that dad back from "yamcha" with Mr Mak, I finally got him to open cempedak which he bought several days ago at CS Kajang Mewah with a noticable higher price around RM13 per kilo vs RM8 per kilo at NSK. He is obviously an amateur at opening it. It is so funny watching but alas I was moved to help when asked. He claimed to have expertise in choosing the ripe and juicy ones at market, which is to pick those looking rounded and full, so it is rich in flesh. Well, I gotta take note on this.

I cooked a dinner after so long. Partly because tomorrow is an off day so I be in better mood to cook. No joke who wants to cook for a dinner that takes 1 hour 30 mins from A to Z. I would rather drive out and eat. Usually an hour is more than enough to get tummy filled. Oh and what I cooked was my cabbage + fucuk. My skill has gone rusty in a bit I couldn't place soy sauce at my desirable amount by feeling. So the entire taste of the "zhap" from the dish went off by a little bit. It was a dinner intended for 2 along with rice. Unexpectedly dad didn't touch the rice at all, only getting a little of the cabbage dish. He looked too tired to eat after a day of work and before dinner I saw him opening many packets of Kacang Wangi along with his Guinness. So he must have been slightly full from them. Nah later at night I packed everything into fridge. Can I ask why do I bother to cook for all, well 2 only, when only be bother eating them? A little pissed here.