📝 Dec 2025

Feels like my laptop's battery is busted. Still working fine yesterday. Today it is not charging. Well, kinda expected from this 5 ish years old of a laptop. I guess this is a crucial component to fix as now I cannot use it away from home on battery. While its speaker has been busted for quite some months yet I didn't care to fix it as it is not a vital component to be worthy of a fix. Since then I been using an external connectable speaker as a means to get by.

I learnt that my cousin Lin got a new Axia. Looking forward to checking it out and having her drive me around. And Nenek house has got a new fence to replace the old stuck one.

First time trying a skin care face mask for the first time. Lucky sis woke me up from me sleeping into it.

Fuh Hao graduates from primary school today after grueling 12 years.

ToF I still have many story to go through. I guess most simply skipped past the story but not me. Despite that slowing down my progress.

My old bulb from Mr Diy was RM 7.50 for 1450 Lumen, 24 Watt, expecting to last 8,000 hours. My new bulb from Mr Diy was RM 12.50 for 1500 Lumen, 13 Watt, expecting to last 15,000 hours. Which of these is better actually?

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Speaking to a hot-headed, unlearned, unwilling to learn, is deeply upsetting. Keeping my composure probably hurt him way more than me lashing out.

Pushing the idea of me must be grateful to have been born and then loudly abruptly and angrily shutting me out when I speak.

I said you are not listening, then how would you understand? He said what is there to understand from sohai idea. I thought of course you don’t, you barely read after all.

Why should I be grateful for something I never ask?

The argument being everyone on earth had been born one way or the other. It is the way things are. This belief is deeply flawed. Everyone doing the same does not mean it is true.

How everyone believed the earth was flat does not mean it is true. Still too general?

Ever know what is the survivorship bias? It means the skew in statistics in which only those who survive are taken into account as data. So what has that got to do with the philosophy of being born? Only those who procreate have offspring to be counted while those who chose to not or for whatever reason to not, simply died off at the end of the day without. We, being the product of the procreation tree, exist, while we are not aware of the alternative path of those that do not. In hell would this statistics make sense to an unlearned.

Then went on about how mum wanted a kid. So I thought, was it you who truly wanted a kid or you were just fulfilling mum’s wish while you were busy enjoying yourself. Don’t get me started with the worst selfish reason of wanting a kid was to have someone to look after you when you are at old age in the name of 孝顺

This is purely philosophical stuff. How it has anything to do with my uni to blame Idk. Got told how a uni graduate idiot spouting this kinda bullshit. Bruh… my uni was all IT I thought. Wtf does IT have to do with whether I stand as natalist or anti-natalist.

How dare he even mention to me about Buddhism, monk and nun stuff. He knows jack shit about them. Buddhism is fundamentally anti-natalist at its philosophical core. 

Then went on about how the world would have gone extinct had everyone thought the same. First, the world goes extinct or what not is none of my business. Whether the world goes extinct is a good thing or bad thing, I couldn’t care less. Why do you keep insisting that the world goes extinct is bad. Yeah I can't deny that the world need people to run. That is not because mainstream idea is true. It is just a vast majority of the people are not thoughtful enough to realize.

Then went on and said how he would be ashamed of telling others how he had an idiot son of what I just said. I asked what is worthy enough to tell? He said of course there was none at all in my bullshit and he would be ashamed of this idiot. Then I asked, then otherwise had I not had this idea, you would have been proudly bragging instead?

Yes I am ungrateful to have been made. Don’t force me to. Yes it is indeed very painful to a parent. To a parent, the existence of the child is the meaning to their life. A child ungrateful would invalidate their identity, their meaning.

Lunch at Kim Lai and expectedly I had been slacking on my promise to get her Xmas songs.

Went to Dr Ko Kajang for my over a year on and off 's left foot itch and got diagnosed as left foot dermatitis aka sensitivity. I gotta determine the cause which i suspected was the rubber shoes. It all started from the black rubber shoes which its sole has worn out and got thrownn away. Then recently got this eva rubber shoes and so the base itchiness started running rampant. 

Then after lunch, I went to the Curl Fixer in Kajang too. Unexpectedly, they only do appointment based and the nearest date available for appointment is in Jan 2026.

I went to Green Acre to check out the water dripping air cond pipe. Surprisingly a lot the designs there also follows this same design as it was purposely done that way to avoid water from going along the wall. Which is ironic on how the reason as to why I got this email in the first place was that the management has recently painted the wall and so to not to have units dripping air cond water onto wall.

Got a light bulb from Mr Diy to replace the burnt one at the washing machine area. And straight away I killed 2 mosquitoes with the help of that lamp. Bloody ass mosquitoes slain.

Got time in the evening to quickly get my manicure done after knowing A won't be free on Mon. One of my nails had started cracking for over a week ago, but I endured it. Today I saw a technique used to create gradient effect on nail. In less than 2 hours after doing it, I found some bubbles forming. Letting my nail tech know, and arranged to fix it tomorrow when I am free.

I went out with half up half down hair for the first time. Maybe in a few months time difficulty would reduce as hair lengthen making it easier and not that stiff to clip properly.

Long time no go Ace again. Je Kopitiam got Chee Cheong Fun. Taste... mahmah. Saw Hui San got new manicure. Asked her if she did at the same place she introduced me too. Yes it was. Heard from her they got a rotation about 3 nail techs there so someone might be less skilled as that what lead to the poorer review in Google Map. I learnt that she extended her nail this time cost about RM100 - RM110, whereas if no extension it would have been RM40 - RM50.

Fuiyoh I finally got my ass to level up the tamer skill to level 2 in Tof. What an achievement.

I issued to my employees that they are to self record their own trips so that when there is a clash between my record and their note of how many trips they go, we can check. Well yeah previously I was hesitant to have them do more work. Now who cares, so they dun come to me afterward says got kira kurang or what bs.

Nawari Tomyam finally opened today. Can't say it tastes any good for its chicken chop (well, they mistakenly served a variation of chicken chop that another table had ordered where I thought was chicken chop at first). And the sizzling tauhu doesn't look any of it like the one shown in picture.

When dad complained seeing me playing games, you know the best answer to it was. Yeah cuz you are here busy bodying around, how can I play my pink rabbit vibrator. So I play game instead.

Sewed a bit of dad's shirts. Same Nawari Tomyam Sg Long is closed with shutter half open. Nawari Tomyam BMC all dark closed. Bamboo Village BMC too. Then went back to Yoke Wan. Wahahaha. I aint going into thoe hot as hell food court or 2nd hand smokey as fck or oil smoke as fvck piece of shit place today. Dad, annoyed, but still went back to Yoke Wan.

Damn Nawari Tomyam Sg Long is closed. Their shutter only half open. Luck to Yoke Wan.

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